Love Letters To Read are copies of love letters written by people just like you and I. These are real love letters that someone has finally written to the one they love, and hope one day they will see here. We hold these things inside of us, sometimes for many years. Mistakes made, wrong choices, things said that shouldn't have been said. These love letters to read will inspire you, and the love letter you send to me, will inspire others when they are looking for love letters to read.
These love letters to read come from the heart of people across the world, where they couldn't keep it in any longer, and to say what was in their heart. Don't just read these real love letters, but isn't it time you wrote your own to that special someone you have been holding so near and dear to your heart for so, so long? Here are some love letters to read for you to enjoy.
Once in a while though, a love letter is not enough. Someone writes in with a lengthy story of their love. Something that they gad to get off their chest. So I started a new page of
Dear Roanne, I don't know if you will ever see this letter, but, on the off chance that you do stumble across it, there are some things I have wanted to say to you, for a very long time. I have never stopped thinking about you.
You are on my mind, every single day. There is a knot, in my stomach, that never goes away, borne out of the shame and regret that my horrific behavior towards you has created. From the first time I saw you, I thought that you were an absolutely awesome woman. Never, in my wildest dreams, did I ever suspect that you would be interested in me.
When it became obvious, that you were, instead of being flattered by your interest, and seizing the opportunity and the privilege, of getting to know you, I seemed to revert to panic mode, which tapped into all my hang-ups and insecurities, allowing my subconscious to send me careening down a path of behavior, that bothers me greatly, to this day.
Nothing else I have done, in my life has left me as embarrassed and ashamed, nor has affected me as deeply. The truth is that, on far too many occasions, in my life, I have run away from woman who tried to get close to me, hurting them, in the process. I have managed to justify my actions on those occasions, to myself, or at least been able to move on, but, in this case, I was never able to do that. I'm not sure if it is, simply, a case of far too much shame and regret, or a case of letting a prospective relationship, however fleeting, with a very special woman slip through my fingers.
The thing is that I have never been very adept at, or fully versed in the concept of love. I don't think that my mind could fully grasp the fact that a beautiful woman, like you, would, actually, go out of her way to strike up a friendship with me. You, obviously, saw more in me than I ever saw in myself.
Roanne, I regret that you were never able to see the real me. As stupid as it may sound, coming from a man my age, I could not get past your looks, and get to know you. The emotional walls around me, and around my heart were simply too thick. You were willing to take a chance, on me, and place yourself in a vulnerable position, but I seemed unwilling or unable to reciprocate.
Once the 'walls' came down, I was able to see the damage I had created. There was the night at the front desk, with you standing there, undoubtedly expecting me to say hello, but all I could do was freeze up, until you left. I have replayed that scene countless times, in my head, and bemoaned the fact that I never got to see your pretty face, up close, nor did I ever give myself the opportunity to make you smile.
As if that were not bad enough, part of the 'tape' running on that loop, in my head, includes the night I, blissfully, traipsed by you, as if you were invisible to me. That, of course, was the last time I saw you, save for one last visit, months later. Seeing you, on that night, and realizing what might have been, was almost too much to bear.
I, also, need to admit to becoming somewhat obsessive, when I left, after my first visit, with idiotic phone calls and ill-conceived letters. For that I apologize profusely! Roanne, as I intimated before, I'm not sure what is driving these painful feelings and emotions within me. Am I in love with you, or is it the fact that I hurt someone who was willing to put her heart on the line, for a man she was, truly, interested in?
I should have felt like the luckiest man, on the planet. I should have tried much harder to be the man you wanted me to be, but all I could do was revert to the same old pattern of behavior. You would have been the most exciting person to enter my life, in a long time, but I shut you out, unwittingly or not. Please understand, that I would never, ever consciously hurt you, or any woman, despite my track record.
You have become my template, for my idea of the perfect woman. That I am writing this to a woman I never got to know, is a regret I will have to live with, for a very long time. For all the pain I caused, at that time, please accept my deepest apology! My your life be filled with everything you ever dreamed of.
Hi Again, I just wanted to make sure you made it home ok last night. I had such a good time. I've wanted for so long to find you and see how life turned out, and I'm really glad I did. When I told you, there isn't a day gone by that I haven't thought of you, I wasn't exaggerating. I just always wanted to know that you were ok, and that you were happy. I thought if I could just talk to you, it would bring some kind of closure to that chapter of my life, but being able to spend time with you and just talk meant so much more.
I don't believe however, that the chapter will ever be closed. There is too much history. I don't know if you realize or can even relate, but there has never been another person on this earth that I've loved the way that I've loved you. I believe that a person only has one true soul mate and for me that is you. I've secretly dreamed for years that you would show up at my door, tell me you still love me and want to be with me, and you know what? I would have dropped everything and gone with you without blinking an eye.
I realized last night that I still would. I'm not telling you this to scare you away, because I truly don't expect anything in return (although it would be nice. :) It is just something I needed to say. I am also perfectly content just to have you in my life as a friend. Just don't completely disappear on me again.
I'm just so grateful to have found you, and that you seem truly happy. Talking with you feels like sitting down to talk with my best friend. We hadn't seen each other to really talk, since Brian died, and it felt like we were just catching up on what happened last week, like there hadn't been a span of over 15 years since the last time we talked. It felt like it was just yesterday.
Things are just easy with you. I've spent the last 17 years with someone who doesn't understand me, and quite honestly, I don't understand him either. We've just found a way to coexist. It's familiar and comfortable, but it never has and never will compare to what I felt with you. I know and have always known that I and I alone screwed up the best thing I ever had and just the fact that you can actually still talk to me is a miracle after what I put you through. We were just a couple of scared kids but the feelings were real.
I realized that back then I lacked the maturity to know that you don't screw up something so special. I have changed; I'm not that scared kid anymore. For the last 17 years I have done what I thought everyone else wanted me to do. I really never gave any thought to what I wanted. I put aside my goals and my dreams to make everyone else happy. But I took the first step and went back to school and I feel more alive and at peace with myself than I have in a very long time.
I'm proud of what I've done in this short time and I am actually looking forward to the future and making my own little notch on the universe. I really hope I haven't ruined what could be a great friendship by telling you all of this, but after seeing you again and feeling those same old butterflies in my stomach and feeling as if I were floating on a cloud. I had to tell you because if there is even the slightest glimmer of hope that you felt the same way, I don't want to waste another moment. I can't change the way that I feel for you believe me I've tried, but your always going to have my heart and my soul.
I've tried to give them to others, but there is only one you. I thank God every day that he gave me the chance to know you and feel a love so intense that it's now permanently engraved on my soul. You know me in a way that no one else ever has and you know what a profound affect that one incident in our lives had on me. I have never gotten over that. If I had known then what I know now or if I had stopped to think for myself instead of letting everyone else think for me, I never would have gone through with it. Quite honestly that is why I waited so long to have children.
I thought I didn't deserve them after what I'd done. I allowed it to happen, yes I was a kid, but I still had a choice. I just can't help but wonder how different things would have been for us both if we had done things differently. Would we have resented each other eventually or would we have become the family of my dreams, the one fairy tales are written of. I'm sorry, I did exactly what I promised myself I wouldn't do. And dredge up the past.
I really don't dwell on this anymore, but I did for years. I'm all about the future and living each day as if it were my last. My Mom's ordeal taught me that. If I want something, I go for it. So what if it's the scariest thing I've ever done, nothing good in life comes easy. I'm going to stop rambling and ponder this a while before I send it, because once I do, my life will change forever one way or another. I read this quote once that said, " Love is not about finding someone you can live with, it's about finding the one you can't live without" For me that one is you.
It was a decent day. The sun warmed my cheeks, we said our goodbyes. You begged me not to go. I could feel a little cool breeze. I said that you could trust me. I should have stayed there with you. I felt sick to my stomach as I drove off watching you walk inside.
We texted throughout the day until he came over. I should have listen to my heart that day. The screaming inside of me that kept telling me that I have someone who would give the world for you. I kept blocking it off I wanted to know what It was like to be with someone else. I should have never gotten into my car that day. I should have never went all that way. I should have been with you.
I should have not let her convince me that you would never find out and that It was okay to try to be with someone else. She was never happy for us. She was always jellos of the fact that we were so happy all the time. Lately I have been thinking of how horrible I was to you. How much fun we had together. How we always found a laugh outta everything. I miss how I can't face you anymore.
I miss the fact we can't talk. You were my best friend, my rock, my everything. I could talk to you about anything and you never had any smart remarks or made fun of what I said. You know/knew all my secrets when my family was never there you were. It has been about 4 years and I still still remember it like it was yesterday. I can still feel you touch on my hand as we went our own ways that day. I just wish that I could have changed the things that happened that day.
I lost my True Love that day. I also love my Best Friend.
Knight in Shining Armorby Star Gazer (Grand Junction CO)
The night I saw you I was in Aw.... You where not the typical man I would be interested in. You where sweet funny and witty and blew me away.My typical guy was cowboys and tall and there you where bald smooth faced fully sleeved and the most amazing smile and those dimples... The first night we spent together was amazing!!!
While we watched movies you just held my hand and caressed my arm it was better than any sex we could of ever had. I really didn't know what to expect, you are an amazingly beautiful man. At first when we made the date I thought it would be just a one night thing and then the next day you called and we laughed.
For a while we where just friends and i wanted more but didn't want to scare you away by asking for more because you made me so happy inside. And then things became physical and you are the only man that has ever made love to me that way it was like we where made for each other. And then we both ended up in relationships but we still had our friendship and i could still depend on you to be there if I needed some friendly advice or just a round of mini golf to have a good laugh.
Then one day i got the call that you where leaving to join the service, that day i was so sad but proud of you at the same time. I knew this country would benefit from you being there for them, for US.... You came back from boot camp and we spent a night together and I left in the middle of the night because I was scared I was so in love with you and wanted to stay by you forever but I didn't know how you felt in your heart and was to afraid to ask, and when you asked me why I left that you had wanted to wake up to me that morning my heart dropped and i knew right then I should have told you my fears but I didn't.
So off to Iraq you went and we communicated through letters and every now and then you would call. I finally got the nerve up to write you a letter and tell you how i really felt and how I felt like I was in a fairy tale around you and you where my knight in shinning armor and I wanted to be with you. I poured my heart out and then didn't hear from you for months.
I watched and worried that I would hear that you had be killed in battle, but one day walking through the mall i saw you and my heart dropped and you walked over and introduced me to your wife..... Oh my god I was lost and to this day wounder if I would of woke up in your arms that morning if things would be different if i would be the one next you every morning.
That day was the last day i saw or talked to you and that was three years ago and i still morn the loss of your friendship and love you showed me and there are days i wounder if you where to call and tell me you love me and would i come be with you I think I would pack my things and be there. I love You so much I have never had a man make me feel like such a woman in just the way you talked to me or touched my hand.
All i wish is for your happiness. I guess the old saying goes you have to love them enough to let them go. And I have to do that no matter how hard that is. There are times i feel so stupid for even feeling like this because i don't truly know how you felt but I know deep down that you cared or loved me just on who you are as a person I know you loved me I just wish I knew if i blew it or if you just didn't love me in that way.
Well my knight it is time to let you go in my heart and soul so I don't have to live with the wounder or the pain I Love You and always will have that place for you take care be safe in your travels and one day we may meet again.....
I always thought we were soul mates /meant to be together. I just did not understand for a long time what went wrong. I guess we were to young and you were scared! Not done with college & me just starting in college. Remember the long talks on the phone as friends after we had been broken up for so long and me driving all the way to Carlsbad to see you for dinner ?
Boy I missed you and did not know what to say to you, you had changed and not sure what was going on with you...I still think of you and me and the chemistry we had and the talks we had and the things and thoughts we had together..I since moved to TX and got a new life -a divorce to a alcoholic and 2 wonderful teenagers to show for it. ..in 4 years I am moving back and plan on looking you up to see what life you have..I hope it is a good one. I will end it now with the wonderful memories we made and the piece of my soul you will always carry with you..........
Oh, I am in love with you all over again, though to be truthful, I never really stopped. We married almost as children, not yet out of our teens. We made babies and plans and homes and wishes. We grew up together. And I loved you more and more. I would wait for you to fall asleep and then whisper all my love for you against your chest.
I would tell you all my secrets, all my fears, all my desires. No two people could be as different from one another as we were. You lived in the same house until you married me, my family moved every two or three years, from city to city. How could I have known then that all those moves were bringing me closer and closer to you? You were solid and dependable and sure.
I was vapor and moonlight, never sure about anything except that I loved you. I left you the year we turned 40 and 41. I couldn't stand the feeling that you only put up with me, hated my flighty ways. You left me and your sons alone so often to go fishing, hunting, anything outdoors. You'd come in so tired and smelling so wonderful! We were lonely for you. I was so lonely, it felt like I was living alone, raising children all by myself most times.
We all craved you, longed to be with you, but you acted like you didn't like us, much less loved us most of the time. I turned bitter and learned the best way to hurt you was to spend your money. You learned the best way to hurt me was to aim straight for my heart, tell me I wasn't good enough, that I was a burden to you. Our sons grew and started leaving home and I spent more and more time alone. It felt like I was dying.
So I left and tried to make a life for myself without you. I moved hundreds of miles away from you and our children. I sought comfort in other men's arms, but they weren't you. Some treated me the way I felt I deserved to be treated: without love, as something to use and throw away. Some fell in love with me and I was merciless when I broke their hearts.
And through all the years, I longed for you. I would lie in bed alone and cry, saying over and over that I was so sorry I had hurt you, that I wanted to go home, secret tears I never shared with anyone. Once you left a message on my answering machine telling me you loved me still and the man I was living with erased it. I was bereft. I left him not long afterward.
But in the time I was away from you, I grew up. I faced and survived horrible things. I learned how to take care of myself. I learned to take responsibility for myself and to be accountable. They were some of the hardest lessons I've ever learned, but they were necessary. You remarried and she cheated on you, broke your heart into a million pieces. Others saw her for what she was, but not you.
She alienated you from our children, was cruel to them, and though they were grown and had children of their own, they felt abandoned by both of us. My heart will never stop breaking because of that. Now, after more than a decade, I've come back to you, but not as the person I was. I have made a home for myself here and have a wonderful job. Our sons and their children visit me whenever they can and I savor every sweet second of the time they spend with me.
One night I went to your house, the house we built together, and told you how I still love you, have never stopped. And we made love. I don't know exactly what it was for you, but for me it was like truly coming home again. I know you're afraid I'll hurt you again, but you have my solemn vow that I would rather hurt myself a thousand times over than to cause you pain. I offer myself to you as a mature woman, sure of who she is and what she wants.
And what I want is more years with you, with us surrounded by our grandchildren and great-grandchildren. I don't want your money, I have enough of my own. I don't want your house, I have made a home for myself that is filled with music and laughter and beauty, except it's missing one thing, just like my life, to make it perfect. It's missing you.
The last time we were together, you held me and looked deeply into my eyes then asked, "Where is this going?" It's going towards something. It's going to unconditional love. It's us learning to love the people we've become, leaving the past behind and starting over, moving towards the very best versions of who we are. I will never send you this letter, but I know that every time I am with you, everything I feel and have written here is in my eyes.
You whispered so quietly that you almost breathed the words, "I love you, Denise." And I hold that moment and that feeling close, letting it guide me through my own fear of your rejection. If you were to find someone else and she made you happier than I can, I would willingly let you go because I want with all my heart for you to be happy. But I don't think that's going to happen. I think you're falling in love with me, too. I love you more now than I've ever loved you, and we live apart. We steal nights together and that's all I want in the world for now; to be in your arms, to listen to your heart, to feel your kiss. I will always be yours.
Big Rapids, MIDenise-----------------------------------------------------------------
I fell in love with you at first sight. I risked it all to be with you. You were so intense, every part of me was mesmerized by you. I was yours, mind, body and soul. I was so happy when we went to Vegas to get married, I got pregnant there, but didn't know until later. I asked you to leave when you left bruises, because someone said something untrue. I was yours, mind, body and soul, but you couldn't see that. I wanted no one but you, but still the bruises came one more time. A part of me died when you walked out the door, I read the letter that you left, and prayed you would come back soon. I almost lost our baby, and was so scared, I thought I would lose a part of you. You said in your letter you would be back, I waited... and waited, I waited for over 20 years, I waited for you, and then I found out you died in December. I waited 20 years.
About 10 years ago, I was working late one night at the Auto Dealership I was the manager of. The phone rang about 9:30 or 10 pm. I was tired, still had work to do and didn't want to be bothered really. I answered with an accent and said I was the janitor and all the sales crew had left for the night. The lady on the phone continued to ask questions and I finally confessed I was one of the managers and she had caught me working late, how could I help.
We proceeded to talk for the next several hours, til like 1 AM. I felt as though I had known her for years. The talk was free and easy. I was recently separated after a 19 year marriage. Well, I sold the woman a car right on the phone, got her loan approved, and arranged for her to pick it up Friday. She came, with her parents and daughter! Of course I was as nervous as a long tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs, I had never seen her, nor she I, so I kept it strictly business. Yes ma'am, thank you ma'am etc. This even though we had spent many hours on the phone during the week.
She had recently lost her eldest daughter and enjoyed talking with me, and I her. Well, wouldn't you know it, she was the most beautiful woman I had ever laid eyes on. She kept looking at me with a quizzical look like "why are you being so business like"? Well, I was even more nervous than I was letting on. She and her family left, before she left, she gave me a huge bag full of golf balls, she knew I loved to play, and said, don't hit the dirt."
About an hour later my phone rings and it was her. She wanted to know why such a cool reception. I said well I didn't know what had been or not been said between she and her folks so I tried to keep it professional. To make a long story short, we ended up starting to see each other. I was the happiest I had ever been, I never realized how bad my marriage had been. We had so much fun together, her daughter was a joy, and got along well with my daughter of the same age.
I had two older daughters as well. We continued dating and eventually moved in together about 3 months later. Then, I made the biggest mistake I ever made in my life. My ex-started calling wanting me to come back. We had been married 20 years and had 3 kids. I said no and to leave me alone, she persisted and started making me feel guilty about not being with my daughter. That hurt. Truly. I to this day don't know why, I told Chris, I was sorry, but felt so guilty, I felt I had to go. We both cried, but with the class I admired and loved so much, she said if it hurts you in your heart about your daughter, I don't know what to tell you.
I love you, and I'll miss you." Sadly, I left and went back. It lasted about 48 hours, I realized what a gargantuan mistake I had made! But, Chris had vanished! I called, left letters, tried everything to get in touch with her for a week. Then I got scared for her, not at work, not at home, I hired a PI and yeah, he found her. Told her I was looking for her and made it sound bad. I was only concerned about her, and wanted to make sure she was OK. Needless to say, time went by.
I was to embarrassed after the last conversation with her, she was furious, to try to reconnect. My divorce was finalized and I was devastated. I went through the motions of life. Then out of the blue, she calls me at work and says she's getting married, I manned up and said I was sorry again, and good luck. It lasted 3 years. She called me one night, said he was an abuser and if something should happen, I should make sure he was looked at.
It happened, but not to the extent that she was too badly hurt. And she divorced. We spoke a couple of times after that. I had resigned myself that we would never be together and met another wonderful woman. We are quite happy together. She has recently met someone and I came across her page, quite by accident, on My Space. I hope she's happy.
Actually, I hope Christi Anne see's this. Nothing hurts more than losing that one soul mate. That one you are so trusting of, that you have so much respect and admiration for. It's actually worse than the death of a loved one. As you know they're alive, out in the world, living life. And you wonder to yourself, deep down where you don't talk about it, "Does she ever think of me?" "Did she really know how much I loved her?" How hard and difficult it was for me?
I know it was for her. NEVER, EVER, Ever, if you are lucky in life enough to meet that perfect match, never let go. Foresake all others, your children will still visit you and love you. Your parents won't look down on you. Your true friends will understand. Never let go of that special person if you meet them. I promise, you will regret it til your dying day. While my current love and I get along famously and are best friends as well as lovers and mates, there will always be that part of me that wonders "What if?".
I truly hope Chris doesn't yearn and ache as I do. She doesn't deserve it, she didn't make the mistake, and I promise the piece of me that died that day was big enough for two. Chris, if you ever read this, I miss you, I'll always love you, and I wish you nothing but the best.
I know my girl really loves me? When my girl tells me that she can not ever tell me a lie. When she had a hundred walls up and now I have seen the last one fall. When she loved me when finances went low and yet she did not walk away. When she loses patience’s with the small things in the kitchen or home I do different and not her way, yet she looks past it and still loves me.
When I act jealous and sometimes over protective or controlling she understands that is my pure love and importance of exclusive deep love bond between only me and her is my reason and she understands me and forgives me and loves me. When I tease her and push her beyond her patience she pleads with me to stop pushing her buttons and then I relent and stop. Yet she still loves me. When I take her out on the town and present a coupon at every cash register during the night she understands me and still loves me.
When out in public I again and again love to embrace her and kiss her neck, hug her, hold her hand all in public displays of affection she understands that I went 10 years plus without PDA in my life and she allows it against her own wishes of no PDA and yes understands me and loves me. When I keep her up for hours in bed talking to her, telling how much I love her and all of my dreams I have for me and her and our future together and will be without end.
Yes she loses sleep but she gains insight to the true pure love that I have for her that is soul deep. She loves me. When I awake her in early am hours from one dream to another dream that is real and intimate and personal, I love her with passion and tenderness that we share in our tender way. She loses sleep but gains intimate love with me, I know she loves me.
When I act spoiled and pout when I do not always get my way, she forgives understands and yes still loves me. When I annoy her and she is at her mental limit she understands the difference in being annoyed with me and loving me and keep them separate she still loves me.
When all things wrong I do she never hates me and always loves me and forgives me and still loves me. When all others around her tell her I am not good for her she dismisses their evil words of advice and effort to foil true love she does not listen to them and she runs to me with open arms and tender lips because her love is true and relentless for me.
When I hold her tight at night and we feel our hearts beat as one and our souls melt together and I whisper in her ear “I will never let you go” and “I love you Cindy with all of my heart and soul” she whispers back “I love you too” That is when I know my girl Cindy truly loves me…. I love you Cindy with all of my heart and all of my soul.
My love is endless, my love is true, my love is unconditional and I will never leave you. You can trust me John with that deepest spot in the bottom of your heart….trust me, believe in me and most of all believe in Love. Love the man that “gets you” and understands you and loves you just as you are. Yes honey I do finally "get you"
"When will I meet you, love of my life?...............................Or do I know you already? Will you reveal yourself in my dreams. Or will you elude me only to discover that I failed to turn the corner where you were, or recognize you when you passed my way. I know you as well as I know my own heart. You are sensitive and caring, but confident, elegant but "manly".......... You are someone I trust unquestioningly.
You can always warm my heart and make me smile. I feel I’m the most beautiful woman in the world simply because "You love me." I will make you want to try things, because of my enthusiasm when I describe them. You will excite and stimulate me in ways I never thought possible in all aspects of my life and yet, surprise me every day with how familiar it all seems.
You will make me feel grateful to just be alive and wake up in your arms. Nothing in the world will make me happier than just being with you, whether we are doing something exciting, talking together, or just sitting quietly in each others presence.
Every day with you will be new and challenging, and I will want to live a long time just to drink in what life has to offer with you. I will always be proud, just to be with you, wherever we are. And grateful the rest of the days of my life that we are together, and I got to be a vital part of yours.
I will greet you every day with a smile and a kiss; a smile will come across my face when I think of you. I hope to meet you, but more importantly, I hope you want to meet me."
It's been nearly a year since the day we last spoke and even longer since that terrible Wednesday dinner when we decided to part ways. I won't lie, It's been hard, but for the most part I've picked up the pieces and carried on as I saw no other choice. Well, I could have wallowed in self pity forever, but I didn't particularly like that option. Initially, thoughts of you made living almost unbearable.
The job I love became simply a distraction from the pain I felt inside, no surprise, my work suffered, but I got myself back on track again . The things around me that once brought a feeling of comfort and familiarity only reminded me of you, so I got rid of all of it, and I'm happy for the change. That happy go lucky, positive girl you loved to be around felt sad and desperate and angry, so I faked smiles until they felt real and took extra care to be kind to others and make the world a better place. After losing you, I found it difficult to be kind to myself (I felt like such a failure) and the world I was living in was a horrible place. Being a positive force in someone else's life helped to make my own a little happier. The tears seemed endless, but I carried on until they seemed to dry up... a bit.
I remember you telling me that I wouldn't have any trouble finding someone else, that whoever he was would be a lucky guy. Your words made me cringe and feel more like a failure than ever. Besides, you were kinda wrong about that. True, I've found lots of men who've wanted to be part of my life or at the very least, share my bed, but no one has yet to make me feel as loved and as wanted and as free to be exactly the person I am like you did when we were together.
Thankfully, in the meantime, no one has has yet to make me feel as alone and discarded and insecure about who I am like you did when we parted ways. I suppose I'll count my blessings, and hold out hope that someone really amazing walks into my life, but until then, I thought you should know that sometimes it still hurts.
I miss him...and each day is harder - not easier, when i think that i too have given up on him, thrown in the towel, and said, you're not worth the effort anymore. i should have shut up and helped instead of running to friends and family for help with his drinking - i should have found another way...and i hate myself for this divorce...i hate who I've become as i leave bits of myself as scattered memories in his wake...and nothing more. i miss my husband... i miss "us"
I don't really understand what happened.I had AND still have every right to be angry with you.But anger, hurt, and disappointment, does not mean I ever stopped loving you.
I never even got an explanation. Maybe I don't deserve one.I didn't think you were serious when you said you wouldn't call or contact me.All of this is your decision. I don't have the strength to fight. It's not that I let you walk away. It is that you decided to walk away.
If walking away is what you had to do, I understand.I still think you should call me.But if what we had was just a brief crossing of paths, I will be forever grateful to the universe.Thank you for reminding me what it is like to feel.
I was watching "The Way We Were" last night. I had never seen it but you know I'm a sucker for old romantic movies. And like so many things do ... I was reminded of you ... reminded of us and the way we were.
In the movie's final scene Robert Redford sees Barbra Streisand and they embrace. In that moment you can see that he realizes that he was at his best when he was with her, and that no one will ever believe in him or see as much promise in him as she once did. As they part, their past is behind them and realize that all they share now, is a memory of the way they were.
That scene reminds me of the way I feel every time we see each other now. We've both moved forward without the other. We email, text, talk, and keep up with what's going on in each others lives - we're friends again. We come together once a month for dinner or drinks and at the end of each evening out we embrace. And it's always the same we hold each other.
Really just hold on to one another - like neither of us wants to let go. I don't fight it anymore, I used to pull away because it hurt too much but now I just close my eyes and allow myself to be swept away to ... the way we were. It's unspoken yet so lovely. When we part, I don't want to let you go but yet - I know that we no longer fit together ... not the way we used to. So we go our separate ways.
Last night, after watching the movie I was once again reminded that I was at my best when I was with you and I believe you were at your best with me. No one will ever believe in me the way you did or still do.
The memory of what we had has now become my wonder wall ... the place where I can take a break from reality, smile and even laugh about, and spend time with. You’ll continue to be in thoughts, my heart, and my memories. I’m so glad for the way we were. It is unforgettable.
I just found out about you and my best friend from senior year. That's okay. I dumped you. I didn't expect you to keep crying for the rest of your life. Yes, I liked you a lot, that's why I dated you for a year and a half, but I knew it wouldn't work out and that's why I ended it.
I'm happy for you, and I'm sorry I probably made that breakup worse than it had to be. I'm also sorry I apparently gave the impression that I was anything like other friends of ours, because my best friend from senior year completely fell out of touch with me once you two started dating.
Just because I once dated you, that does not make you my property or give me the right to be hurt or upset about you trying to be happy. You weren't my property in the first place.
I know you'll never see this but I kind of hope you will and that you'll know who I am.I really am happy that you guys are enjoying yourselves. Best of wishes.
And by the way, I still love my priest shirt. It's awesome.
You are not the reason I breathe; you are not the reason I was born. You are the reason I want to keep breathing and the reason I want to keep living so many years after my birth! I don't know when I began to love you, I don't know when I realized you were "the one." All I know is that I would do almost anything for you.
As children, we were friends. As the awkward teenage phase came, you were "that boy!" You were the first real kiss I ever had; you were the first unrequited love, for me. Then, something amazing happened: you were my boyfriend! You made me happier and sadder than anyone I had ever met! You were the first to ever take me on a date, you were the first of many things! You were also the first to break my heart.
You said I was awkward and quiet, that I never spoke. You said you didn't want to hurt me, but you did. I love you with all my heart; I want more than anything for this heart to let you go, to let me move on with my life. Something, whatever it is, keeps you in my mind. I want you to know that the girl I was with you was not the real me! That was the me that I learned to be through a rough and tumble childhood. Please, give me another chance? I promise this time I won't be that girl.
As I write this, the tears come. I feel like I am truly dying inside, dying from heartache! I want you to be the one I spend the rest of my life with, the man who is the father of my children, the man I grow old with, the man I die with.
I write this in hopes you will one day see it, know that I wrote it and realize what you are truly missing: someone who loves you for who you are, someone who will always love you, someone who believes in you. I know I must sound crazy, but I can't help these feelings. I would never do anything to hurt you or make you afraid of me and I only hope you don't perceive this letter wrongly.
Jared, I want you to know that I'm going to try and move on, but in the case that you change your mind, you know where to find me.
Dear Unrequited Love, it has been five long years that you have stayed on my mind. I should have moved on such a long time ago, our daughter however keeps us in constant contact and makes it so much harder for me to let go.
I stupidly have kept an on, off physical relationship with you over this time which kept the dream of myself and you alive. I have been through anger, tears, tenderness and good old immature feelings of I want my own way and will do whatever I have to to get it, and many other feelings that have scorched deep into my heart.
We had lunch today with our daughter and I didn't want to leave you, wanted to stay and have fun, we have started being together again in the last few weeks and this has stirred up feelings all over again. I love you and wish you so well in your life, but I just cant keep doing this, I know I have said it so many times before even to you but yet we are drawn back to each other as the contact keeps everything alive.
However I do know that you do not feel the same as I, I know this deep in my heart. You don't contact me unless its about our daughter, and I guess this keeps your guilt at bay, that it is not you that contacts me and that makes it ok.
You have told me that you would not mind if I had a boyfriend ( although you would not like him) how much more of a hint do I need? what else needs to be said except for ITS TIME to stop giving so much to this. I will do my best to keep you from my thoughts, and keep our contact to a minimum, knowing that any moments we have are just that and nothing more. I say goodbye and from this moment on keep you from my thoughts.............xxx
Today is the day I finally let you go . I have loved you deeply in my heart for the last 15 years. You have moved on from me a long time ago but my love for you has never stopped or diminished. I always hoped that one day it might be again .
But that is not what fate had in store for us. I have had this intense love for you for so long that I don't remember anything else. It has made my life very sad as I feel like I have been waiting for something all this time. I have to move on now , I love you more than anything in this world that will never change . I hope for you happiness in your life .
Deerfield Beach, Florida
E.L.H., You were the most perfect person for me, and I knew it, but I also knew my destiny was not with you,other than the brief stolen moments we found comfort and love in each others arms.Though it was wrong from the beginning, I have never been loved as the love you gave me. I knew there was to be an ending, but I didn't know when or how.
You surprised me in how you ended our relationship. I thought I might have deserved better, but I'm sure there truly was some bitterness in why you chose to end it like you did. I really can't blame you because it was also what I truly knew had to happen.I was too much of a coward to end it.
Now, the after effects have been draining and life altering, but if there is a chance that perhaps in the world of right and wrong, we might get a chance in the "right", then that would be my wish, because I do truly love you, and I know that once I was you "lord!"
Yes, love changes never stays the same. Friendship changes, if you connect, it only grows deeper, richer, such a lovely investment, you think?
Love changes, partners change, time changes, whether it be the simple little things, or the fun exciting times or the hot sexual touch.. two lovers entwined and time stands still. Happens only a few times in our lives when we are awe struck by someone so sweet, kind, down to earth, honest, fun and loving. Tell me true, did you think I was beautiful?
Did you think I was soft? Did you think I had lips of red rose? Speak to me my love and tell me so, for how will I ever know?
Where you are I want to be. I will always think of you and think of the special times. My friend, my confidant, to you I owe my love.
My dear, a once in a lifetime love is a hard thing to come by. We had this love once, and it ran away from us. Oh, how I wish it hadn't and how I miss you so very much. Words can barely express it.
How fast the time goes, it flies right on by, but no matter how fast it goes, my love for you grows stronger with each passing day. This love has finally piqued, and I know now, I will never love another that much.
Like I told you once, on a special night, if all I ever get to do is love you, it'll be the greatest accomplish of my life. I meant that with all my heart, and despite what we have been through, I still think it to this day.
One day, maybe we'll meet again, as we do in my dreams every so often. There, I get to dance with you, holding you tight, while listening to a great song, "It Had to be You," from a very special day.
I just wanted to tell you that you are, and will always be, my special sweetheart. A wise man once said, "Love is all we need," and now, after all we have been through, I know that to be true, but I have lost you.
Take care my sweet, and maybe someday you'll come back to me.
H - There was a line in the latest Indiana Jones (Kingdom of the Crystal Skull) movie that hit home for me when I was watching it. SPOILER HERE IF ANYONE HASNT SEEN THE MOVIE! Indy's love, Marion, from the first movie comes back around because she is the mother of Indy's son, who seeks out Indiana Jones to deliver a message.
Anyway, they first see each other, and trade words back and forth about how neither one of them bothered to reach the other. Marion retorts, "Oh, I'm sure there were plenty of women over the years to keep you company..." Indy says, "Yes, but they all had the same problem.....they weren't you."
That is how it is for me regarding you, H. You made it clear that you didn't want to know me, had no intention of talking to me. I tried reaching out a few times....nothing. Yes, there are plenty of women I know who want to be with me (I don't mean that in a vain manner, either, it just is), and I can go out and chat up any woman I find attractive and get dates....and I do. But they all have the same problem....they're just not you.
I guess I was wrong when I felt confident that you loved me as much as I love you. Frankly, I was blindsided....devastated. Still am, and am permanently damaged inside because of it. I live with it...but it sucks and is lonely, and I know in my heart and mind that I'll never find true love again, because you are my true love.
This could all go away if you'd just talk to me and give me a chance. I often wonder if it's because you're ashamed of something that you don't talk to me. Afraid I might have been right about what happened. You'd never, ever admit that, I know, but I wonder. But you know what? It just doesn't matter.....the past is the past. It can't be changed. I'm not interested in the past....I only want you, only you, from here until my final days.
That's all I'm asking. And don't think that past mistakes permanently mar a perfectly good relationship, whether it's between friends OR lovers. We have the ability to forgive AND forget, and I embrace that wholeheartedly.
I don't know what happened, or if what I thought happened really happened. I don't care anymore, it doesn't matter. What does matter, to me anyway, is that I just needed to come here and write something down. I doubt if you ever comb these links, so you'll probably never see. If you ever wondered whether or not you can talk to me without me saying a word.....you can...and I really wish you would.
We could always talk about anything...until the last few months together. You changed in those months.....your beautiful face was cold and stern with an almost disgusted look when I was around. You would say things that would hurt...personally directed things. I guess you were trying to tell me something....I don't know. All I do know is that my love for you will never die, nor will the confusion and pain of how we so abruptly parted hasn't subsided, and wont.
I wonder if you ever think of me...and if you do, do you just shake your head and call me a fool? Or might you think that you may have made a mistake in kicking me to the curb? You can't imagine just how much you mean to me and how you're always on my mind.
If you ever wanted to talk with me, you know you can.....if you ever wanted me back, here I am.....from here forward...the past is gone...but we have the now....grab the now....grab me, for god's sake! We were made for each other, and our world were intended to collide and meld...not explode.
I can't, and won't write to you anymore. I won't call you. I'm only respecting your wishes of not wanting to know me or communicate in any way. I wish you cared enough to call. i wish you loved me enough to start clean....it is possible with me, and you know that. You should have no fear of retribution from me...it's always been that way. I love you, H. You're permanently etched in my heart and mind...in first place. You always will be.
J (who wants to be your Robin Hood)
Miss that feeling. That feeling where i can look into your eyes and the butterflies in my tummy begin fluttering like crazy. The way you hold my hand. The way your lips feel against mine.To have that feeling of being in LOVE.
I miss cuddling. I miss having that special someone to talk too. I remember when we first started working together.i couldn't stand being around you, but the more we work together the more i came to like you.Then until one night I had a dream of you,from that point on i knew we had something special. Beneath this little body beats a huge soft warm heart.
A tender loving caring person. Where oh where could my baby boy be? I wish I were holding you in my arms right now. I wish we were cuddling in bed. I miss that tender loving care only a guy like you can give me.
Life has been great,Since you entered it. I'm dying for a sweet loving connection to balance me out. I miss being in love. It's been over 3 years since I've had a man in my life. there's a scarcity in single . Where are you babe?!!! I wish you'd find me already. I want to love and be loved by that special person. God I'm missing you.
Maybe one day when our paths cross again things will be right. And if they don't ever pass by each other again, at least we both had the opportunity to be something to each other. I will take only the good memories and the great lessons learned.
As long as we both take something positive from our paths crossing then God's plan will be fulfilled. We went through hell together and yet saw glimpses of heaven as well. You will forever have a huge place in my heart that no one will ever be able to fill.
I miss my friend and lover...but yet I understand we both have to move forward in our own ways at this time in life. For some reason our path together ended and we both went different directions. I'm tempted to run back and chase you down your path, but I know that is not right and I have more respect for myself than that.
So I will move forward as you are moving forward. We will both be happy with the choices we have made and we will move forward. And like I said, if and when our paths may cross again, maybe God will have a great plan for us. And if not, then I know he will enable us to be happy and find true happiness with other people. I will always have love in my heart for you and care for you greatly...but for now, find your happiness.
Be true to yourself and make wise decisions. Don't let anyone change you from who you truly are and let only you make the choice to change yourself for YOU if you so decide. Know in your heart that every choice you make is taking you down the path that you are supposed to be on, and if one is a mistake, learn the lesson and know it was a lesson that was supposed to have been learned.
May God protect you and watch over you as you go on this new journey and remember that somewhere out there, someone loves and cares about you and wishes you the best in your search for your true happiness and love in your life.
I don't know if you still peruse Craigslist, but I thought I would take the chance to say the things here that I can't bring myself to say to you.
Late this spring it will be two years ago that you came into my life. Oddly enough, we met through this very site, both out of long term relationships and not looking for anything more than a "friends with benefits" situation.
Looking back, I started to fall for you over the emails and IM's exchanged before I even laid eyes on you. It wasn't long before we admitted that we had fallen for one another. What was to follow, would be the most amazing time of my life.
I've never connected with someone in such a way. I've never before felt like something was meant to be the way I felt we were. We had undeniable chemistry, in more than just a physical way. Words were never enough to express how we fit together, like you were the last piece of the puzzle and with you, and all that you bring, my life was complete.
I knew going into this that you had baggage, as did I. I always believed that love was enough, that we could conquer anything together. Unfortunately, that wasn't enough. We hurt each other, and I know neither of us meant to. It's been 4 months and 15 days since we ended things. At first we stayed in contact, then it lessened and lessened until it became almost non-existent. It's tearing me apart to not have you in my life.
I guess I am hoping that you will see this and know that I still love you, and that I still want to work things out, if you are willing to try. Maybe it's too late, maybe you've gotten over me, maybe you don't feel the same way. I just wish I knew what to do, where to go from here.
I love you.
I want for you to know so badly that i love you more than anything in this world and i would have never done what you accused me of doing to you in a million years, because you are have been and always will be everything that i have always wanted in life within a soul mate. i miss you and everything about you and I don't know what to do with myself now or my tears or how to deal with the pain from all of this because i did not do anything wrong.
You asked me to marry you, and I ran away....6 yrs ago - w4m - 26 (The mason dixon line, if u don't hurry)
I love you.. I was stupid for leaving, but I had to. I came back but you never wanted to see me again. Then you met and married her. I never forgot about you, I would think of you every now and then.
It became very few and far between, the thoughts of you.
Suddenly out of no where after 6 yrs there you were again.
Ive never wanted a man so badly. To love and kiss and hug and laugh and cry with.
You make me laugh like no man ever has, you make me feel so beautiful, I can completely be myself around you, and not worry if I'm ugly or fat, or to thin, or not good enough.
You have the most beautiful blue eyes I've ever seen.
There's always been something I didn't like or wanted to change, or that bothered me in some way shape or form, about the men I've dated.
There is NOT one thing I would change about you.
~funny as hell ~genuine ~caring ~so kind ~protective ~complete dork at times ~and smooth as silk, in cheesy awesome ways.. ;) ~gorgeous ~CREATIVE ~hilarious ~sensitive ~strong ~love to fish, and drive camaros as much as me ~friendly ~willing to help whenever possible
I love you, I knew it when I first saw you again. That I was in love with you. I want to love you for the rest of my life.
You said to me, " I don't think those vows mean anything"
I think it takes both people believing in those vows for them to mean something.
and taking them for all the right reasons, not because they think its whats best for the "situation"..
If this finds you... you know where to find me.. Im planning on leaving in June. But I'd stay here and trudge through the sleet and snow of the next 85 winters if it meant I could trudge them with you!!!!!
That night watching smokey and the bandit and drinking Coors was the best...